Is there anybody out there?

What the hell is it about me that you don't like? Honestly, because what ever it is others seem to like it. If it's not the smoking, drinking, swearing, or laziness what the fuck is it? Why am I so fucking dumb? When did my super ego show up? Since when do I think about others before myself? I have a beautiful woman who wants to go out with me and my conscious won't let me because I know I wouldn't be in it whole heartedly. I mean what the fuck. This isn't Tom. 19 years of being a dick and all I have to show is this blog which shows my demise. I need a change of scenery. What happened to me?

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that
I can't live a day without you - Michelle Branch