Well i haven't posted in a while so here's what's up. My shoulder is fucked.(this time pretty bad). tom N. is still a wisker biscuit. Yeah...so....well.....um.......i'll post more when something happens in this god forsaken place.

hmmm

Well i had a good evening. Went to bean. Dave pahanish was playing. He's fucking awesome. Was there with Laura, Chip, Carson, and one of Laura's friends. It was fun.

Jason's new name is Strut Fuck

Have you come here for forgiveness,
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus to the lepers in your head-U2

yeah

It's when you don't expect it, good things happen. It's when you stop looking you find what you're looking for. Life's is going well. There's no news like bad news. So therefore, i have nothing to post.

Martin Luther Knig Jr. Day- Pride in the name of love.

Early morning, April 4.
A shot rings out in the Memphis sky.
Free at last, they took your life,
But they could not take your pride.
In the name of love - U2 Pride. A tribute to Martin Luther King Jr.

Nothing to post

Yeah this sucks. This blog is going down hill faster than a train that lost it's fucking brakes. There's just nothing to write about. Well, other than that i found a girl i'm interested in but that's all. We'll i'm going to watch the game around 4:00 so have a good day you useless fucking cunts.

You're a baffoon!!!

Yeah you are. The last few days have been nice. time with old friends and new ones. Not much to post now. This blog used to be a rant about my hopeless life but now, there's light. So, have a great fucking day you cunt.

I move on

Boring ass day at work. I swear we hire the dumbest fucks on the face of the face of the earth. We hire one dumb person, then there even dumber family members. Anyways, I feel beter than normal. It could be this shit they gave me for my shoulder,but i think it's more than that. I feel free.(and pretty). I'm back, with an even stronger don't give a fuck attitude.

First day of classes

Not bad at all. I got two classes with my favourite professor. Blossel. The other classes aren't too bad either. Blossel + Open book and note tests. Oh fuckin' yeah. Brandon M's friend Courtney said i remind her of colin ferrell. This makes two people. Maybe i should try to quit smoking and swearing. Ummm , Fuck it. Well, gotta wake up for work, so, i'm gonna drink a little more than sleep.

First day of classes

Not bad at all. I got two classes with my favourite professor. Blossel. The other classes aren't too bad either. Blossel + Open book and note tests. Oh fuckin' yeah. Brandon M's friend Courtney said i remind her of colin ferrell. This makes two people. Maybe i should try to quit smoking and swearing. Ummm , Fuck it. Well, gotta wake up for work, so, i'm gonna drink a little more than sleep.

This plastic little place is just a step amongst the stairs

I have some things to say. Things to get off my chest. I hate not being told the truth. Leaving things out is also fucking retarded. If you're too much of a fucking panzy to to tell me what's really going on, don't say anything at all. Just save you're breath.
However not everything is bad. I still have some great friends. tAnd things have been working out for the best lately. I start classes tommorow at 8 in the fucking mourning. Maybe i should get a drink before then. Anyways thanx to those who have been there. You're all awesome people and I can't thank you enough.

I know it's not considered right
The way I live my days and nights
I always thought I'd rather be considered lucky than good
I know it's not considered right
And everyday another fight
I always thought I'd rather be considered lucky than good SR-71

Contemplating life with my freinds smirnoff and beretta

Have you ever lost anything you loved? Have you ever just wanted to crawl in a hole? Losing something sucks. It's even worse when you purposly let it go to save it. When a situation turns hopeless what are you to do? Nothing. There're some things in life that just can not be replaced. There are some things that will never be the same. this is the end of an era.

Love isn't temporary. However neither is pain.

Last minute addition

Reassesing some things
1. aim: i hate it and only got it due to peer presure.
2. college: hate it, only going because i'm forced to.
3. Love: i choose to die unhappy and alone.
4. Every decision i've ever made: I can't take them back
5. My final solution: It will hurt to never see you agian but, you're better off.

How it feels to be alone and not believe.

Hot tub and cafe bean sums up my evening. I love hot tubs.(This subject contians personal info but can be discussed about if asked nicely). Bean was fun. Good band. Got hit on all night.(Just when i thought this place absolutly sucked). Got to share stories with the now high school generation. They'll go far. I gave them some advice and some wisdom. They remind me of myself last year. Happy to get out of school and ready to move on. There's a place in my heart for those fuckers. Well, got better shit to do so, peace.

You'll find out that you're better off without me.(sorry jason, tom, jerome you're stuck with me).

Win a date with Smokey Drinksalot!!

What a great fucking semester this is going to be. Baring any lottry winnings or someone running me over, i can't see it being any better than last semester. Fucking college. This is turning into the biggest waste of time and money ever. Anyways, hope all you fuckers had a good new years. I hate new years. It's always a dissapointment. Well, i'm gonna go before i this gets any more depressing.

Due to a reassesment of risk aviodance: I'm going to cut my heart out.

You may allready be a winner!!!!
Pick a number between 1-10 to win a date with smokey drinksalot!!!!!

Fuck damn shit bitch ass

Holy fucking shit.

I won't forget the way you made me feel
I won't regret running away from here- SR-71

When will this end.

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong, now, one more time...

'Cause I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low
I could get down to the ground
And I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I have
Tried to be this

When will this end?
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keeps spinning around
I know that it won't stop
'Til I stand down from this for good.

See ya on the other side.

Are there any queers in the theater tonight?
Get them up against the wall!
There's one in the spotlight, he don't look right to me,
Get him up against the wall!
That one looks jewish!
And that one's a coon!
Who let all of this riff-raff into the room?
There's one smoking a joint,
And another with spots!
If i had my way,
I'd have all of you shot!-Pink Floyd's In the flesh from The Wall

The good times are back.

God bless Ed Stotka. The funniest fucker i know. Went to stotka's around six. Had some wine and 16 oz. high life cans. Watched a little bit of Total Hip. Ed is having his hip replaced and they gave him a video. Talked to ryan for a while. We took our new cars for a ride. That's about it.

Today's word of wisdom:Yesterday is a whore. Tommorow is vd.

I've come to a corner

I can't do this anymore. Things have got to complicated. I don't like what i've become. I've become a munipulative asshole, a whining piece of shit, more unhealthy than ever, and worst of all one of those people who destroys themselves over a girl. I used to constantly over emphasize the good so that i put off a good apearence and now i'm just lonely and broken. I liked it better when i didn't care. I still have no regrets for anything i've done. If i went back i'd do it all agian. I hate this place yet i don't move. why?Because by not doing anything, i can't regret doing anything.

Fumbling his confidence
And wond'ring why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly-Switchfoot

Nothing Changes on New Years Day

I succesfully pissed off most of my friends. Guess that'll be less people to say goodbye to when i leave. The party(messer's) started out well. I showed up a four. left at about 3:30. After a few attempts to stop me from leaving(i wasn't drunk) i finally got out. I was right when i said that there's something about Alissa. She was the only thing holding me to myself. You ever see something that just makes you want to drive off a bridge? It's even worse if you kinda knew before. I pride myself on being brutally honest. I wish that i was given same sometimes. I will begin agian. To my friends: sorry, but i don't care. To Alissa: you were right. To the past year: fuck you. To: myself: never fall agian.

Though i want to be with you
Be with you night and day
Nothing changes
On new year's day-U2