I am flawed but cleaning up so well.

The reason I really think it's too soon for me to go up to see a certian someone is that if it goes like last time I might do something stupid and hurt someone else which would end up hurting me. Isthis is where evolution has gotten us. We still do anything for our own survival. My weekend plans go as follow. Friday-Call Jason and Chip, get drunk, pass out. Saturday-Wake up at 2:00 and get ready for a wedding. Yes a wedding. For whatever reason someone want's my company for a wedding. I only said I would go after a long discussion about relationships including her ex and my current situation. Sunday-one can only hope still drunk. So if I have dissapointed anyone I can say I'm sorry but that would be a lie. I (yes me of all people) need time to sort things out. To comment on where does being does being negative get me. It doesen't get me anywhere but niether does being positive. I'd rather be negative. When your at the bottom you can't go down any more. So I'm going to check on that god damned time machine and smoke another cigarette.